Last week, I emailed the clinic where the eggs were frozen. I wanted to let them know about the dismal outcome of the eggs. They emailed back today that they usually have a 85% thaw rate, a 66% fertilization rate, they implant 3 eggs and there is a 25% pregnancy rate. They told me there is a learning curve for this procedure and they were sorry my clinic didn't have more experience.
Although this was exactly what I wanted to know , it has made me so sad. We should have had a chance with these frozen eggs.
I'm not sure I properly grieved not getting a chance with this first cycle. I moved so quickly to the DE cycle 2, that I haven't fully let out how angry, disappointed and sad I really am about the crappy thawing. This dude should not have undertaken the procedure if he was not qualified to do so.
My jaw is really tight lately. I think this grief is going to get out of me one way or another.